Day 3

It sucks....I'm not gonna lie to you. Doesn't seem like I'm making any progress. I know that all takes time, but this is the stage where people give up. I swear after the day I have had I would eat chocolate cake for dinner and crawl in bed if I didn't have a goal. Why can't I?  Is it because other peoples lives always sound soooo much more interesting than our own?

I am a paralegal by trade, medical malpratice...sounds interesting doesn't it? It's not, I am bored to tears. My husband is a technical operations manager for a cable/telephone/internet company that also sounds interesting....again, wrong. I watch people who's jobs are exciting like bull fighters and paratroopers and think there's a job I could love....bet those people don't. So what is the solution here??? Well insanity, or so it is said, is doing the same thing everyday and expecting different results. So technically, we are all insane. There, don't you feel better? I do. Now I have an excuse for my dilemma....haha

Ahhh....but I am changing my habits and aside from a slight backslide in the attitude today (IT person was provoked and taunted) my attitude, physical being, eating habits and sleep/wake schedules. For all those who are disheartened (like me at the moment) read "who moved my cheese". Awesome book, very insightful.


Peace and love.....until you hear my stomache growl again,
Marshell

Here we go.....Road to Sucess-Day 1

This will be the journey of a middle aged woman (41) a little on the "healthy" side, attemptng to turn back the clock. Not to the point of trying out for American Idol...who are these idiots in their 40's that still think they rule?? Don't they have friends or relatives that say "NO! DON'T DO IT TO YOURSELF!" Anyway I want to find my lost optimism and innocence, to remember the feeling of "anything is possible"that you have as a child. To all those in my shoes, here are some common threads...I have no will power, no drive, no "special" talents....I am good at my job, but do not excel beyond expectation. I have become content with my job which is to say the least unfulfilling. I however am not satisfied with this averageness that has come to smell so familar. At the end of this quest I will post before and after full body bathing suit shots so brace yourselves...I'm serious!

1. start a diet (oh the all to familiar words- I would just as soon slit my wrist)-start weight 195 (byt the way height is only 5"4)

2. start exercizing- (exercize?? sounds familiar but I can't put my finger on it) joined curves!!

3. Drink water- as good as it is to swim in...leaves something to be desired in the flavor department. 8 bottles per day.

4. Do something I would never do- I will suggest to my husband and friends this Saturday that we go to Kareoke, and I will sing, this will not be pretty...but sometimes you have to take small steps! I'll let you know how it goes.

5. Change my attitude- we get bogged down with things, I'm not sure how I'm gonna do this, but I am determined to follow the "what about Bob" theroy and stay positive...you've heard the old saying ignorance is bliss....well we shall see.

6. Have a party- remember when we were in our 20's and we didn't care if all our dishes matched or whether we had the right wine....that's what I'll do, a party with loud music-alcohol-and someone ending up on the roof or in the pool even if it's me!

7. stay up late- I used to stay up till 2 or 3 in the morning and be at work at 6:00 a.m. (not that this will become a regular practice for fear I will slide into a comatose state and become the walking dead) but I think maybe once or twice a week on a school night.

I think that's enough on my plate for now....I will give weekly updates and weights for those who care! (or as I like to call them my two fans) hahaha